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Is it bad that I just seem to be getting more and more upset at the con world and "con friends" who just seem to have it all going on and working out for them?
I could be a little bitter but there is just many things about this hobby that is supposed to be about fun and being silly nerd that is becoming an elitist. And it gets old. People who claim to not to be elitist and really are, people who criticize for not being 100% accurate or anything. Like come on people, no one is perfect.
I just feel really alone in this. Many of my con friends seem to get along with one another, happy and thriving in the cosplay community, and I am all by myself for the most part. And maybe I am over thinking things like I tend to do, but to feel this way at all just makes me even more exhausted, anxious and melancholic.
Anyways, up next is ACEN. I am not really as excited as I once was for this con. Maybe because one of my favorite photographers I only get to see once a year if I am lucky (usually see them at youmacon) will only be going Saturday, so I don't think I will get pictures with them (they don't seem to want to talk or anything anymore.... which is sad. I liked them a lot). Or people are charging up the wazoo for photos. Which is another thing making me mad. I get why people would want to charge at conventions, make some money cover the expenses and what not. But the rates people are charging seem ridiculous. Some people are charging more than I think a shoot with them is worth or especially for the time they are allotting. It honestly makes me upset. Some of these people put out the same quality of work I do, if not less and they charge. I don't because I do not think it is fair to charge for the quality of work I can currently put out. -sigh-
Sorry, I just needed to rant a bit. I am sure once I get there and am having fun with friends things will be much better.